Fear Struck Again

"Are you going back to see your doctor?" These were the words that struck great anxiety within me. Under "normal" circumstances, I would not have thought twice about such a question. And I never thought that hearing this question would bring me such fear. Honestly, I never even thought about being asked that question ever again.

A few days ago, I underwent an ultrasound of my gallbladder and pancreas because I had been sick and some of my blood work came back a little elevated. My physician simply wanted to make sure he wasn't missing anything. At the end of the exam, the ultrasound technician asked if I was going back to see my doctor. And hearing that question, I immediately became nervous and fearful of the outcome of my ultrasound.

Let me rewind a little bit further. At 22 weeks of pregnancy with our daughter, I had the routine ultrasound conducted. Upon completion of the ultrasound, the technician asked, "Are you going to see your doctor today?" Just a few minutes later, there we sat in my doctor's office hearing for the first time that the ultrasound revealed our unborn baby girl had only one leg. That one question...that one day...changed our lives forever. So, hearing that same question again asked by an ultrasound technician just a few days ago brought me a wave of fear and anxiety. I was completely caught off guard by my emotions....and I still am. That question brought back emotions I thought I had dealt with. This really is going to be a lifelong journey for our family, but one I'm honored to travel through the love and grace of our Savior.

(Oh, my ultrasound results came back PERFECTLY FINE! Brian was so very compassionate and understanding throughout the entire process. He took us to dinner to celebrate great results. :)