Worried?

"Why are you worried?" Joshua asked in such a sweet, innocent voice.

Joshua and I were having a conversation about him wearing a Halloween costume to school the next day. It's been a silly week at school....there was a day set aside to wear their favorite hat, a day to dress crazy, a day to wear camo...this was to be the day to wear their costumes. The only problem is that not many kids or teachers have participated in wearing these items. So on the day they were to wear something crazy, some kids laughed at Joshua's shirt which upset him a little. As I reminded him how he felt that day (trying to DIScourage him from wearing his costume to school the following day), he replied, "Well, maybe I'll just forget [if they laugh]".

I'm encouraged by his thinking and his heart. We still haven't decided what to do regarding his costume (sounds so silly, I know), but I am sitting here somewhat in awe of his sweet, tender, profound question. "Mama / Tara, why are you worried?" I can just hear Jesus whispering to me tonight. My heart has been so consumed with fear, worry, and anxiety throughout these last 3-4 years. Not all of it has been difficult, there have been many wonderful, joyful, peaceful moments scattered throughout these past years. But, the central theme of fear, worry, and anxiety has been extremely prevalent (just ask my husband ;).

Why am I so fearful? The God I worship and strive to glorify today is the same God that brought forth water from a rock and moved the ocean to create dry land to save His people. Why am I so worried? The Savior I love and seek to tell others about is the same Savior that willfully died on the cross and rose again in His glorified body. Why am I so full of anxiety? The God I strive to always trust is the same God that says in His Word, "...do not be worried about your life....for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things [speaking of clothing and food but can be applied to other aspects of life as well]. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:35-34)

So, the question stands....why is my heart so worried?

God, please help me to trust You more with each passing day. I know You alone are sovereign. And while I may not understand these circumstances, may my focus be to glorify You through whatever the circumstance so that others may come to know You, and You alone are glorified.