I think I'm prepared...I think I'm prepared...I think I'm prepared....but I'm not.
The other day, Hannah asked me why she was missing a leg. And looking back on that moment, I can now think of a couple of good ways to answer her question, yet, in the moment, nothing came. Nothing other than the fact that I don't want her to be upset with God for how He formed her in my womb. At such a young age, she may not understand the answer that God made her perfectly as she is to bring Him glory. So at that moment, all I could say was, "I don't know, Sweetheart. I just don't know." And I don't know why. Doctors don't know what causes her condition. And we will never fully understand God's sovereignty and plans until we see Him in Heaven. (Oh, what a glorious day that will be.)
As I sat upset with myself for how I failed to answer Hannah, I heard Joshua and Hannah in their room talking....Hannah talking to Joshua about her missing leg. And I heard our most amazing and wonderful son answer his sister with this joyful response, "But when you go to Heaven you'll have two legs."
Words can't express what an amazing little heart our son has. He loves his sister. He is protective of her, loves to play with her (when they're not fighting :), and encourages her in so many ways. He is an amazing young man that I am so privileged to call my son.
Thank You, God, for giving Joshua sweet and encouraging words in a moment when I was silent.
2 comments:
THAT was a powerful post, my friend! It's amazing the ways God speaks to AND THROUGH little ones!
Hi Tara...long time no chat with you. Jenna just turned 4 and is finally commenting about her leg and asked lately "why God made her that way?" The first time I did try to answer but she keeps asking and I finally said "I don't know but he has special plans for you." I think that is good enough. Honestly I don't think we WILL ever know WHY so I decided why should I try to explain God's mysteries to her? I told her she could pray and ask God herself and I sat and prayed with her. I guess we never know what to say or whether it's right or what they need. I truly think the Holy Spirit allows you to speak what they need to hear. "I don't know" is OK because I surely don't know why. :-)
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