Thursday, October 20, 2011

Not What I Had Planned

Just a quick update....my follow-up appointment Tuesday did not go as well as I had expected, resulting in yet another hospital stay where I still reside. With continued contractions (which doesn't really alarm me...I've been having them for so long that they just seem like a natural part of the pregnancy now) and my cervix continuing to thin (an additional 5mm since Friday) while on bedrest, my doctors are not yet giving me a definitive date as to when I may return home. The contractions have gotten amazingly better since beginning a new medication. And since I took my last dose of the medication this morning, I'm contemplating on lobbying the nurses to encourage the doctors to let me return home on bedrest :)....however, the nurses I've already talked with aren't quite on board with that plan....

Tuesday night was a grueling night on the labor and delivery floor. I think they were afraid sweet Caleb's arrival was imminent. But sweet Caleb remained in his little home and yesterday morning, they moved me to the Antepartum unit which is a very depressing place to be (if I must say so myself). Many women on this floor stay for weeks to months at a time.  The nurses are kind, the rooms are very nice and clean, but I'd much, much rather be home on bedrest with my family. I just can't imagine being here much longer than I've already been here. That's definitely NOT in MY plans, so I haven't yet resigned myself to the notion that I may be here for quite some time (yet the nurses keep tenderly shooting down my hopes :).

My doctor has asked for a second opinion, so a Perinatologist will be coming by sometime this afternoon to review my history, talk with me, and give his opinion. Maybe I can lobby him to let me leave tomorrow! Maybe I should ask my husband to bribe him with some cookies. :)

Thank you, in advance, for your continued prayers. They mean so much.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Dear Tara, I know how hard bedrest is especially in the hospital! But the nurse and NICU preemie mom in me has to tell you it's so much better to stay put so you'll really be monitored closely and be forced to truly rest in bed not try to do. Anastasia was 30 weeks and they said it was great she was a girl because typically boys have more complications born that early - more the late bloomers so to speak. Please do not rush to leave as it could be significant a risk to Caleb. Will be praying for your patience with the process and for your body to slow it all down. A few more weeks in will make a HUGE difference for little Caleb health wise long term!!! God is good and is working even when it doesn't seem like it humanly!! Love you very much and we will continue to pray HIS mercy and grace will be sufficient and will comfort you.
Angela

McCollums said...

Dear Tara,

I'm sorry you are stuck in the hospital. I know it is not a comfortable place to be. But the labor and delivery nurse in me as well as the momma of preterm babies wants to encourage you not to rush the doctor into letting you go home. Certainly state your preference, but don't twist his arm. :) And as boring as the hospital is and as much as you miss your family, it is easier to do nothing in the hospital than it is at home, even with all the outstanding help and should something stir up they can address it faster if you are already there. I know it is hard. I am sorry.

And don't be discouraged to be on the antipartum floor--that is a good place to be since it means they don't expect Caleb to make his arrival just yet. How many weeks are you? I remember the very helpless feeling Adam and I had when I was 27 weeks with the twins and the neonatologist discussed the possible implications. We cried and cried. We were glad to get the three more weeks we got. Every day makes a difference.

As you have often told me, press on, my dear friend. I will pray things with you stay quiet so you can return home soon. I love you. Call if you want to talk.

Wendy

Kristina said...

praying for you & your sweet baby boy

Jackie Haight said...

Hi Tara,
You are in my prayers and on my heart.Here
Is a verse I clung to for many a days when I
walked in the dark. Proverbs 3:5-6.hold tight to
His hand and He will not fail you!
Love in Jesus, Jackie

Jenna said...

praying for you my friend. Sweet caleb stay put baby boy and grow big and strong.you have a lot of people who love you and are cheering you on!Hugs to you all